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Subject:I think I'm losing my mind.
Time:08:18 pm
Ugh. My willpower is just horrible all of a sudden. I had to make dinner for my mom - I was making her smoked salmon quesadillas, and I started getting so hungry and emotional that I thought I was going to both collapse and explode at the same time. And the biggest feeling of loneliness ever came over me for some reason and I just started crying. I almost ate her dinner before she even got home, but I stopped myself because her dinner, being a quesadilla, was tons of calories... all goat cheese and sour cream and salmon and such. But I was freaking out. I couldn't stop crying and I just collapsed onto a sofa while the salmon was grilling and ate like 1/2 a cup of flax & soy tortilla chips with some salsa. Then I made myself two smart dogs, cut them up, and put them in an organic red chile tortilla with a cup of hot salsa and some nonfat cheese. After I ate that, I ate a tiny square of dark chocolate. Which puts me at 497 cals for the day (including the cals from diet soda and herbal tea). I feel totally stuffed and satisfied right now, but it begs the question... WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? My willpower is shot, my emotions are going insane, and I almost passed out after ONLY 19 hours of fasting. I was feeling perfectly fine two hours earlier and then suddenly I was so depressed and hungry and dizzy. I don't get it. When I was fasting earlier in the year I wouldn't even get dizzy until the third day.
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING? When did I become so weak?
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sheletmego
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Time:2004-06-29 05:37 pm (UTC)
I totally know how you feel. Like I was fasting and I felt fine and then all of a sudden I was dizzy and had to eat something like 237 calories . I felt like a pig. I'm sure you will feel better. Do you want to start a fast with me? We can do it together and motivate eachother.

i dont care about posting my email so it's buzzzbee88@yahoo.com

Let's do it . I am motivated.
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cocoabodywhip
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Time:2004-06-29 06:02 pm (UTC)
Actually yea... I want to try fasting again. I want to get some willpower back into my life :/

My emotions are going whacko and totally controlling me. It's so weird.

Email me at somde@msn.com or AIM - dbwayfarer.
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gasping
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Time:2004-06-29 05:42 pm (UTC)
hey i'm looking for some ana friends to talk to online. if you want to chat, im me at fromthiscloud. <33
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cocoabodywhip
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Time:2004-06-29 06:03 pm (UTC)
added you to my buddylist - i'm dbwayfarer.
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