Ate like 1700 cals yesterday. Damn.
Woke up this morning, and at first the scale stopped at 129, then went to 132. My mom's told me 130. What the hell?
Regardless: started up my diet pills again. I feel like I'm retaining so much water right now that my eyes feel puffy, like after you've drank too much wine. I feel sick and unwell again. The constant state of almost-nausea and malaise that's been overtaking me for almost a month straight.
Plus the emotional state I've been in. So moody and antisocial and hormonal. I'm so lonely yet antisocial at the same time. I want to be loved so badly but I just keep pushing everyone away. I'm a study in conflictions.
It feels like I've been PMSing for a month straight. Only without the period. Ever. At all.
Anyhow. I'm under 350 cals for the day; did 20 minutes of pilates earlier and worked for 5 hours. Hopefully I'll be smaller tomorrow.
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